As a young boy I knew that I wuz different from most other boyz. . . So I learned to not be afraid. My mother called me a warrior, and that'z what I wuz gonna be. At a very young age I wuz already aware of my sexuality, and although I couldn't talk about wit anyone. . . I felt I wuz not alone. There had to be otherz out there like me. Sometimez it got hard to listen to kidz in school tease other kidz about bein a faggot. . . but because I wuz alwayz to myself, they never seemed to bother me. But I wanted to help, but what could I do. Growin up there were dayz when people from the community would come into our class to talk to us about what we wanted to be when we grew up. . . Bankerz, Lawyerz, Firemen. Then one day this Policeman came in. I had never seem someone like that before. While everyone wuz more into the Fireman and Lawyerz, I studied that policeman that day. I wanted to know more about him. . . I asked what the badge on his shirt ment. He told me somethin I would never forget. "It meanz to PROTECT AND SERVE!" The warrior I wuz to be, wuz born that day! We all have a role to play in life, I realized what mine would be, to protect and serve. Thatz what I wuz goin to be when I grew up. . .
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I wuz known az someone who could be trusted and confided in. I knew what it was like to keep a secret. So people always talked to me about there problemz, but I could never talked to them. They would not understand. So I learned to work through the pain. . . Which only made me stronger. I wuz startin to change. . . The lines were becomin clearer. When I got to middle school I wuz sure that I was gay, and sought out information. I knew that I could not do an open search because of what my ultimate goal wuz, but I did find out a lot of information. I knew that this wuz not somethin that I readily decided to be, but who I wuz. I realized that I could not change it, so I learned to accept it.
Through acceptence, I learned gentleness. . . Through gentleness, I gained strength. . . Through strength, I learned compassion. . . Through compassion, I learned honesty. . . Through honesty I learned honor. . . Through honor I leaned love. . . Through love, I learned accerptance. . . And then I start back @ 1.
I wuz not like any man that came before me. . . I was a new creature, one born of adversity, hardship, but I knew that I had a destiny.
I went to highschool bein an average teen. . . gettin into trouble, fights, and all other other shit that goez along wit bein an inner city black teen. I wuz in high school when I had my first relationship wit a guy. He wuz an underclass man but I thought that he wuz cool. But I learned very quickly that people are capable of pretty much anythin. . .
